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Monday, 19 May 2014 || 23:04
Okay, this thing jadi masa aku form 1. My PSV (Pendidikan Seni dan Visual) teacher pregnant so ada sorang cikgu lelaki (whom I forgot the name. lol) ganti cikgu aku tu for about 3 months or so macam tu lah. At first kitaorang satu kelas tak suka cikgu tu sebab ... entah. dia muda, then macam tak ada pengalaman mengajar so memang boring gila lah... + maybe because he's not that good-looking type of person. so yea, kanak-kanak.... xD
Bila dah setiap minggu dia masuk kelas, kitaorang macam dah boleh blend together lah dengan dia kiranya.. Dia banyak bergurau dengan kitaorang even though aku tahu (I'm not sure about the others but for me, I could notice it.) yang dia macam ada jugak lah terasa dengan kitaorang. Yelahh.. budak tak mature lagi.. Cakap pun pakai main lepas je.
But the thing that I can remember the most is that one time bila kitaorang diberi kerja and disuruh untuk hand out kitaorang punya kerja on that same day. So I did my work cincai-ly and I was like one of the earliest kids who handed out ours. Then lepas hantar kerja tu aku duduk dengan dia, borak-borak semua.. Suddenly dia tanya, "Eh, kau ni duduk sini cakap-cakap kau dah siapkan kerja kau ke belum?" and I was like, "dah lah cikgu. Saya dah hantar dah." and dia reply menidakkan jawapan aku "mana ada. Saya tak nampak pun awak hantar." dan sebagai tanda protes, aku meniggikan sedikit suara aku dan menjawab "AKU dah hantar lah, letak dekat situ." and right after I finished my words, the entire class turned their head to me. "Kau biar betul doh..?" and I was like, "Cikgu, sorry sorry. tak sengaja. Terlepas cakap. Sorry cikgu." Then aku straight berjalan ke tempat duduk aku. The best part is, he just laughed to my words and replied, "It's okay."
About 3-4 weeks after that, I'm not sure. He came into our class, mengajar macam biasa then dia kata dia ada announcement untuk dibuat. Honestly that time (once again, I'm not sure about others, tapi AKU) aku berharap dia kata that's his last week in school, and it actually was. "Minggu ni adalah minggu terakhir saya mengajar awak. Minggu depan cikgu awak masuk kelas." So, without any hesitation, kitaorang satu kelas (wait, maybe not all, just some of us lah actually. Well, for sure, including me.) bersorak kegembiraan. "YAAAY!" terpancar satu senyuman palsu di wajah cikgu kitaorang tu. Then tiba-tiba terus rasa bersalah datang menghempap. "Kenapa buat macam tu? Kesian cikgu."
So, for the rest of the day, me and my friend, Ekin, we tried to figure out cara nak minta maaf dengan cikgu tu sebab dah banyak sangat sakit kan hati dia, buat dia terasa and all. So, both of us decided kitaorang share duit, belikan cikgu ni chocolate banyak-banyak. lol And we actually did it. I gave my money to my friend ni, and dia settlekan semua. Beli chocolate and bag + kad ucapan. haha budak-budak lagi time tu. Tu je lah yang terlintas dalam kepala.
So, kitaorang pun sumbat segala jadah chocolate tu dalam bag, and I wrote on the card. I don't remember what exactly that I wrote on the card tapi yang penting memang banyak gila kata maaf. Rasa bersalah gila k that time. So, bila dah settle semua kitaorang pun bagi lah bag tu dekat cikgu. Actually tak ingat bagi face to face or letak je atas meja dia. But for sure, that's actually the last day dia datang sekolah, and lepas tu terus tak pernah jumpa dia.
But for sure, that's actually one of the most memorable things in my life. Thanks cikgu sebab sudi ajar kitaorang, banyak bersabar dengan kitaorang. I miss you cikgu. Like, seriously. I would kill to go back to that time. ='D
the writer,
Zira
